Dear friends and supporters,
I come to you as a brother and friend in the name of our God and Savior Jesus Christ.
Firstly, I would like to thank you all for your continued prayers and support for both my marriage and the ministry of Pauze as a whole. Your prayers are greatly appreciated and continually welcomed.
That being said, I want to let you know what’s been going on in my life, a little of what’s ahead, and how the Lord has been graciously working in it; showing me His great mercy and kindness.
The reason I’m writing to you now is to let you know that for the next few months I will be stepping down from ministry with Pauze.
I had started sexually sinning, with my then fiancée but now wife, right before we were married which lead to her getting pregnant. We’re married now but in no way does that excuse my actions. I was wrong and I used God’s gift to sin.
Sin is, in every sense, evil and deadly. It is even more so destructive and deceitful, and ultimately, its detestable in the sight of our holy God.
I foolishly thought of myself as one who was able resist sin and in my pride I fell. We as fallen humans have a weak inability to resist sin and that serves a valuable warning that I share with you today. In any area of your life where there might be potential sin we should never be complacent with it. Whether sexual sin, or any other, we should hate it and pray to God to help us to resist the temptation.
I’m thankful to God for His grace and mercy. Through it He made me feel grief and sorrow over my sin and led me to ask His forgiveness for it and to hate it. Even more wonderful, He helped me see that even though my actions were evil, in Christ Jesus I’m forgiven of them all. They were all paid for by Him on the Cross.
The goodness and grace of God to me is undeserved, but I thank Him for them because, even through this, He has given us the precious gift of a son. A son we will cherish. A son loved by God and also loved by my wife and I. The love God has shown to me I will also show to him day by day.
To my brothers and sisters in Christ, I pray you hear my heart in this. To my brothers in God’s ministry of Pauze, even though I will be absent from ministry for a time, I will still be with you all in prayer and support. But for now I will be using this part of my life as a means of sharing the goodness of God in His Gospel, and in due time I plan to be with you all once more exalting our God in ministry.
To the supporters and those who look up to me, I want you to know that the reason I’m temporarily stepping down from Pauze is that when I’m on stage I become an example and a role model to you. When I sin, in an obvious way as this, I want you to understand that sin, in any case, is not to be taken lightly, and is not OK. We all sin and none of us are perfect, but I don’t want people to say “he doesn’t practice what he preaches” and dismiss the Gospel because of me. I pray that my absence will help you understand that obedience to Christ and His Gospel are above all things and that I hold them far more dear to my heart than the joy I get from being a part of Pauze.
I am truly sorry… I’ve let you all down and ask that you forgive me.
I pray that you look pass me and see that life and forgiveness are in Jesus Christ. And run to Him!
I love you all and I leave this with you as surety from God’s Word.
Jude 1:24-25 “Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and make you stand before the presence of His glory blameless with great joy, to the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen.”
Grace, peace and love,